ya Allah,..betapa beratnye ujian mu..

nape la mlm ni mlm plg worst skali in my life...pe yg ak wat..sume slh di mata dy..

shud i regret?or shud accept?..

berat sgt aty ni..nk lpas..syg sgt..sbb im totally luv him..siyesly xtw nk type pe..speechles already..npe dy xcye yg ak juz sygkan dy..ley plak ckp ak ad sparepart..bile mase?sape?..then..he said dat im change..ooucchh!!..totally hurted..da r nga got chestpain..tbe2 dpt lak hurt smpai cegitu...tp..kdg2..ak pon lek ngn diri sdiri...coz kdg xsdar pe yg ak wat tu ley wat aty dy goyah..82ly without noticed..so..mmg btol2 xperasan...n sumtimes ak sdar..tp ak da pon mintak mf..cume bile da byk kali...da nek loyew kewt..hmmm...dis nite 21/08/2010...ak da wat dy trase lagi...ak sdar tu..tp nape dy xle cube phm pe yg ak wt..npe dy xphm..npe....ak da try jd yg tbaek ntok dy...ak da cube bg perhatian lbey..tp pe lg xcukup..

a few time dy ad gtw...tp..pnah ke dy tw..aty ak yg keras cm batu ni...ley pecah..ley ancur..n da byk kali berderai,.tp ak xpenah givup..but when it comes to him..cpt sgt nk goyah..kdg2 aty ak jd tawar sgt..coz da byk kali sbr..tahan..coz of ak da xnk turn to other guy..i have to be strong all d time ak face ngn probs wit him..tuhan je tw aty ni luluh..ak tw..tuhan tu maha adil..mengetahui pe yg hamba DIA lalui..so...i juz can kip praying n rely on HIM..

i do love him much more than i am..

n alwiz pray 4 our happinez..

since i love him..i'd never fall to other guys..

b4 dis....ak xpnah nk rajin sgt bertahan ceni..82ly, dulu pnah skali..tp..da org men blakang kan..tinggal jela..nk simpan wat saket aty je..lgpun i fil better to let him go..mybe dy lagii epy skunk kot..i don care...watever larh...

tp yg ni...xmow lepas...even im hurt'd...

honey..

if only u cud understand me even a lil..i'l appreciate it...coz of u..i knew a sinceres all about..

i do love u..

n i miss our sweet moments..

i don wanna b apart from u..

cuz i noe dat i'l die widout u by my side...

*..(speechles..)...

6.42 am now...im not sleeping yet....(non stop crying..)

td telelap jap..huhu..owg sahur kite tido...segan nk bangun coz mate da cam froggy eyes..trok lagi pade katak kot...yg xle bla nye..dlm telelap tu pon ak termimpi sdey n nanges...means..ak da nanges almox bout 7 ours non stop tuh...(12-6am)...teddy ak da basah..towel pon same..then td ak bgun solat subuh..try to text him..'nite syg'..him:'nite..'..only???kali ni ak ase dy pon da nek fedup kot ngn ak..tp yg penting..ak XKAN GIVUP!!!,,hmmmm..82ly nid a shoulder to cry on..lau dulu ak ade bff ak ntok nanges..tp skunk ak kne bdikari la plak...teddy pon jadikla..am i toooo weak to hold my tears??...meyla ak jwb sdiri..memg pon sgt lemah...da name gurl..mudah je..tp bkn ntok sbarangan occasion..n bkn ntok pujuk rayu melemahkan kaum laki..tp da lumrah wanita..xsahur ae ni..da la pwot btol2 o..aiyyaa...sabar ye pwot...

honey,..

if only u cud understand me dat time...

if only we doesnt date last nite..

it wudnt be happen..

it juz b'cuz of small matter..

n we fight each other..

Allah is Fair..

maybe HE wanna show us sumtink..

sumtink dat beyond our thought..

even i cried faintly..nothing gonna change..

i giv all my hope n pray only for HIM..

HE know evrytink bout us..

HE know the best..

I hope for a happy ending

perhaps..

even its all hurt,..

*i praise Allah for sending me u my love

u found me home n sail wit me

and i'm here wit u

now let me let u know

u'v opened my heart

i was always thinking that love was wrong

but evryting was change when u came along

and theres a couple words i want 2 say

for the rest of my life

i'l be with u

i'l stay by ur side

honest and true

till the end of my time

i'l be loving u..loving u..

for the rest of my life

thru days n nite

i'l thank Allah for open my eyes

now n forever i....i'l be there for u

i know dat deep in my heart

i fil so blessed when i think of u

n i ask Allah to bless all we do

u r my love..my friend n my strength

n i pray we're together eternally

now i find myself i fil so strong

evrytink changed when u came along

n theres a couple words i wanna say...

for the rest of my life...

-dedicated to my sygs...

now n forever..i wanna let u noe dat i luv u much more than i ever had..

i hope dat Allah will show us d best ever moments so we can share n be together eternally..

** ~i luv u~ **